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Sometimes a little could mean a lot...

Sacrifice

Take a deep breath, don`t worry, one day someone will look at you like you`re the best thing that ever happened in their life

sweet november

Akhirnya @MantanArjuna is back in here...

Well, sebenernya masih diatas angan mau posting apa, tapi karena bikin post ini untuk menuhin Blog Archieve dan biar bulan November gak kosong :d, jadilah posting abstrak ini.... *harap maklum,...

Banyak hal yang ingin ku jabarkan, namun saat berhadapan dengan laptop jadi ngilang dan memburam deeh....kek mendung diatas sana....tapi syahdu sih... :d.. apalagi beberapa ini gerimis di pagi hari...hmm...ternyata gk cuma hujan lho yg datang membawa kenangan.... :d

Hari-hari di awal bulan november ini sedikit melelahkan (melelahkan apa menantang?), terkadang aku kerap kali merasakan frutasi dan down, masalah demi masalah terus menghampiri, ada tangisan dan amarah yang meluap beberapa ini :'( *hiks....lebeh bgt...

Tapi It's Ok, konon katanya, orang yang gk punya masalah, maka orang itu telah melewatkan masa-masa terindah dalam kehidupan.....*uhhh

Tapi ya nggak gitu banget kali ya....orang yang bisa menyelesaikan setiap masalah yang datang dengan baik, itulah orang yang bisa belajar dari setiap kesulitan,,,iya ngak? :d

Kembali ke november...ternyata banyak kenangan disana...banyak sekali...terimakasih ya Allah, semoga hari-hari yang kami lalui menjadi lebih baik, lebih indah dalam kebersamaan...dan selalu dalam lindungan-Mu. Aamiin 

- Jarak -

Ada rasa haru dalam rindu yang tak mampu ku tahan menjadi bulir air mata…

Kita, hanya 2 manusia yan berusaha tak menyalahkan jarak

Apakah kita akah bertahan…melawan rasa takut kehilangan?

Mungkinkah kita bisa memahami keinginan tuhan membatasi kita dengan jarak ini

Dan, kami hanya menjalani yang kita yakini..

Jogja, 29-9-17

Edited @20-10-17

Hari ini 17 tahun yang lalu

Dear Nda...

Masih inget gk, hari ini 17 tahun yang lalu?

Tepatnya sih 13 November 1999

Makasih banget ya sayang...sejak saat itu aku merasa lebih bahagia, bisa merasakan arti hidup dalam kebersamaan, dalam keseharian yang indah, dan harapan untuk masa depan yang lebih baik. Aamiin

Jujur, aku merasa kamu adalah hadiah yang tepat, yang diberikan Allah SWT kepada ku, aku merasa sejak awal kita ketemu, Allah SWT - lah yang mengatur semuanya, hingga aku merasa sangat beruntung sekali bisa menjalani kehidupan ini bersamamu, bersama keluarga yang dari dahulu kita dambakan

Terimakasih Nda, sudah menjadi Istri yang taat, dan sudah mengasuh anak-anak dengan baik....

Terimakasih ya Allah, Semoga kami berjodoh selamanya, berjodoh dunia - akhirat. Aamiin.

Bimbinglah kami selalu dijalan-MU, lindungilah keluarga kami, berilah kebahagiaan, kesehatan, rezeki yang melimpah, bantulah kami mengatasi segala kesulitan. Aamiin.

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Counterfactual Thinking

Counterfactual thinking is thinking about a past that did not happen. This often happens  in 'if only...' situations, where we wish something had or had not happened.

This can be so powerful we can change our own memories, adjusting the facts and creating new memories. It can happen to cover up trauma or may be just excuses to avoid facing uncomfortable truths. It can also be to explain what is otherwise unexplainable.

what should i read next...

A book is A dream that you hold in your hands.

Hiraeth

 

Hiraeth
(n) a home sickness for a home you can’t return to, or that never was.

Saat hujan turun lalu ingin pulang. ke tempat yang justru bukan berlindung dari hujan, melainkan merasakan curahnya dengan penuh kekhidmatan.mungkin ditengah hutan, dibawah dedaunan yang penuh dengan suara alam. Atau ditepi danau, ditengah pulau, dibawah halaman rumah kayu yang disana kita habiskan waktu dan tenggelam dalam lamunan.

Ketika terjebak dalam suatu hiraeth lama, rindu tak sampai yang terus memunculkan dirinya dalam jebakan kesendirian.

Sebentar, bukankah katanya rumah itu tempat dimana hati berlabuh, bukan? kalau begitu bagaimana jika kita labuhkan saja hati kita disini? Bersama semua angan dan lamunan yang pernah ada... dibawah rintik hujan dan secangkir kopi yang bantu hangatkan pikiran kita. Sehingga saat nanti kita ingin pulang, tungggu saja hari cerah jadi hujan. dan kita sudah kembali pulang.

Lalu tentang kerinduan itu, tentu akan setiap hari kita usahakan dan jangan lupa, serahkan sisanya pada Tuhan...

Tuhan sudah dengan sangat baik hati turunkan hujan. Kalau hujan saja bisa diturunkan, apa sulitnya sekedar tempat untuk pulang. Pasti Kau juga tidak akan tega biarkan kami terus kehujanan kan, Tuhan?

Maroon 5 - Maps

I miss the taste of a sweeter life
I miss the conversation
I’m searching for a song tonight
I’m changing all of the stations

I like to think that we had it all
We drew a map to a better place
But on that road I took a fall
Oh baby why did you run away?

I was there for you
In your darkest times
I was there for you
In your darkest nights

But I wonder where were you?
When I was at my worst
Down on my knees
And you said you had my back
So I wonder where were you?
When all the roads you took came back to me

So I’m following the map that leads to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following

I hear your voice in my sleep at night
Hard to resist temptation
'Cause something strange has come over me
And now I can’t get over you
No, I just can’t get over you

I was there for you
In your darkest times
I was there for you
In your darkest nights

But I wonder where were you?
When I was at my worst
Down on my knees
And you said you had my back
So I wonder where were you?
When all the roads you took came back to me

So I’m following the map that leads to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Yeah yeah yeah
Oh oh oh

Oh, I was there for you
Oh, in your darkest time
Oh, I was there for you
Oh, in your darkest nights

Oh, I was there for you
Oh, in your darkest time
Oh, I was there for you
Oh, in your darkest nights

But I wonder where were you?
When I was at my worst
Down on my knees
And you said you had my back
So I wonder where were you?
When all the roads you took came back to me

So I’m following the map that leads to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following

Awkward moment

Sometimes you may feel nervous when meeting someone new for the first time and it may not leave the best first impression as nerves often cause many people to be tongue-tied and unnatural

It’s okay to be nervous. Almost everyone gets nervous when they are presented with something intimidating or scary—and for many, meeting people for the first time can definitely be nerve wracking! Remind yourself, it is okay to be nervous

I lost myself and do something stupid...HA

“Karena kecanggungan tidak pernah ada di antara dua orang yang tidak ada apa-apanya. 
  So maybe there is something between us.” ― Ika Natassa, Antologi Rasa

~Fire meet gasoline~

Sungai Puting
KM.94
@Hasnur Office

I just read this!

 

"Reading a book is like rewriting it for yourself. You bring to a novel, anything you read, all your experiences of the world, you bring your history and you read it in your own terms."
Angela Carter 1940-1992

Déjà vu

The strange sensation that something one is now experiencing has happened before: “I knew I had never been in this place before, but as I walked up the staircase, I got a weird sense of déjà vu.”

Inner Self Conflict

After drowning myself in such a bad mood for the the last several days, I decided to write something today.

The way you don't trust anyone but yourself is how you won't depend yourself on them. You won't believe anything that they've said because you believe, that every words which will came out from their mouth is a lie. the way you don't want disappoint yourself because of your own high expectation to someone else is called realistic. I am realistic and you can't say that I am wrong for being realistic.

Don't you just hate the fact. Some good friends of mine have gone through such a hard time lately. Being the one who's listening to their stories mostly all of the time is making me know how they feel. One day when it comes to an end, it will all just be a memory

You can't blame anyone else when you get disappoint by the things that they've done or the lie that they've said

i believe in all those simple things, many of us are too passionate to find happiness. Too many of us walk straight and pass all the simple things, which eventually can make us happy. Passing all the beautiful things in life and not be grateful for it. So was I.


So now I'm starting to appreciate things, even small and simple things. I'm starting to appreciate all the life's pleasures that are commonly overlooked. I am thankful for everyday sources of happiness that are right under my nose. I am grateful to God for the life i am live in.

If this is a fairy tale, I wish it will end happily. 

~Think Different~

Here’s to the crazy ones.
The misfits.The rebels.
The troublemakers.
The round pegs in the square holes.
The ones who see things differently.
They’re not fond of rules.
And they have no respect for the status quo.
You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them.
About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them.
Because they change things.
They push the human race forward.
And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius.
Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.”
~Think Different.

Jam Dinding

Belajar Tentang Merelakan

“Let it go. Let it happen. Let it be…”

Pernah kecewa dengan sesuatu, keadaan, kebijakan, keputusan, harapan, dengan seseorang, sahabat, atasan, bawahan atau hal-hal yang gk ke-sampai-an? Pastinya setiap orang pernah kan? Wajar, karena kita manusia yang punya perasaan....:d

Belajar tentang merelakan memerlukan kedewasaan sikap dan kematangan, ketika kita tidak mampu belajar merelakan hal-hal kecil bagaimana nanti kita merelakan hal2 yang besar

Di sekolah atau dikampus, kita pernah nemuin guru yang serem, teman yang curang atau dosen yang killer dalam ngasih nilai….hmmm….

Di lingkungan tempat kita tinggal, dalam berinteraksi dengan tetangga ataupun orang lain, tentu saja banyak sekali hal-hal yang tidak sejalan dengan harapan ataupun keinginan kita..

Contoh lain di tempat kerja misalnya, kita dapati teman yang sering cari muka, membunuh karakter teman yang lain demi suatu jabatan atau pengakuan tertentu (character assasin), kerja ABS (asal bos senang), di depan baik dibelakang busuk, penilaian sepihak yg tidak adil, keputusan-keputusan atasan yang terkadang merugikan kita, kedewasaan & kebijaksanaan yang kurang dll

Begitu pula dimanapun keseharian kita, tentunya ada hal-hal yg terkadang tidak sesuai dengan kata hati..

Merelakan bukan berarti kita tidak mau tetapi kita harus lebih sadar dan memahami makna hidup yang sebenarnya, yang harus kita lepaskan ialah keterikatan kita yang selama ini membelenggu pikiran sehingga kita lebih sulit untuk melihat makna hidup yang sedemikian adanya.

Ada pepatah jawa “Luwih becik nguripke sentir, timbangane ngresulo neng petengan”, pepatah yang sederhana tp maknanya luas,, apabila kita memahaminya tentu kita sudah memiliki kematangan & kedewasaan dalam berfikir. ( baca lagi tentang self-acceptance )

Yang perlu dilakukan hanyalah membiarkan apa yang secara alami akan terjadi, terjadi. Merelakan tidak sekedar merelakan, kalau semua yang kita relakan sudah benar-benar melampaui batas toleransi kita, tenang, sabar dan percayalah bahwa Allah SWT tidak akan diam melihat hal ini, Allah SWT maha mengetahui, Curhat saja kepada Allah SWT. So, Tetetp Semangat....

Terkadang, Merelakan Adalah Jawaban Terbaik