Hari ini 17 tahun yang lalu

Dear Nda...

Masih inget gk, hari ini 17 tahun yang lalu?

Tepatnya sih 13 November 1999

Makasih banget ya sayang...sejak saat itu aku merasa lebih bahagia, bisa merasakan arti hidup dalam kebersamaan, dalam keseharian yang indah, dan harapan untuk masa depan yang lebih baik. Aamiin

Jujur, aku merasa kamu adalah hadiah yang tepat, yang diberikan Allah SWT kepada ku, aku merasa sejak awal kita ketemu, Allah SWT - lah yang mengatur semuanya, hingga aku merasa sangat beruntung sekali bisa menjalani kehidupan ini bersamamu, bersama keluarga yang dari dahulu kita dambakan

Terimakasih Nda, sudah menjadi Istri yang taat, dan sudah mengasuh anak-anak dengan baik....

Terimakasih ya Allah, Semoga kami berjodoh selamanya, berjodoh dunia - akhirat. Aamiin.

Bimbinglah kami selalu dijalan-MU, lindungilah keluarga kami, berilah kebahagiaan, kesehatan, rezeki yang melimpah, bantulah kami mengatasi segala kesulitan. Aamiin.

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Counterfactual Thinking

Counterfactual thinking is thinking about a past that did not happen. This often happens  in 'if only...' situations, where we wish something had or had not happened.

This can be so powerful we can change our own memories, adjusting the facts and creating new memories. It can happen to cover up trauma or may be just excuses to avoid facing uncomfortable truths. It can also be to explain what is otherwise unexplainable.

what should i read next...

A book is A dream that you hold in your hands.

Hiraeth

 

Hiraeth
(n) a home sickness for a home you can’t return to, or that never was.

Saat hujan turun lalu ingin pulang. ke tempat yang justru bukan berlindung dari hujan, melainkan merasakan curahnya dengan penuh kekhidmatan.mungkin ditengah hutan, dibawah dedaunan yang penuh dengan suara alam. Atau ditepi danau, ditengah pulau, dibawah halaman rumah kayu yang disana kita habiskan waktu dan tenggelam dalam lamunan.

Ketika terjebak dalam suatu hiraeth lama, rindu tak sampai yang terus memunculkan dirinya dalam jebakan kesendirian.

Sebentar, bukankah katanya rumah itu tempat dimana hati berlabuh, bukan? kalau begitu bagaimana jika kita labuhkan saja hati kita disini? Bersama semua angan dan lamunan yang pernah ada... dibawah rintik hujan dan secangkir kopi yang bantu hangatkan pikiran kita. Sehingga saat nanti kita ingin pulang, tungggu saja hari cerah jadi hujan. dan kita sudah kembali pulang.

Lalu tentang kerinduan itu, tentu akan setiap hari kita usahakan dan jangan lupa, serahkan sisanya pada Tuhan...

Tuhan sudah dengan sangat baik hati turunkan hujan. Kalau hujan saja bisa diturunkan, apa sulitnya sekedar tempat untuk pulang. Pasti Kau juga tidak akan tega biarkan kami terus kehujanan kan, Tuhan?

Maroon 5 - Maps

I miss the taste of a sweeter life
I miss the conversation
I’m searching for a song tonight
I’m changing all of the stations

I like to think that we had it all
We drew a map to a better place
But on that road I took a fall
Oh baby why did you run away?

I was there for you
In your darkest times
I was there for you
In your darkest nights

But I wonder where were you?
When I was at my worst
Down on my knees
And you said you had my back
So I wonder where were you?
When all the roads you took came back to me

So I’m following the map that leads to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following

I hear your voice in my sleep at night
Hard to resist temptation
'Cause something strange has come over me
And now I can’t get over you
No, I just can’t get over you

I was there for you
In your darkest times
I was there for you
In your darkest nights

But I wonder where were you?
When I was at my worst
Down on my knees
And you said you had my back
So I wonder where were you?
When all the roads you took came back to me

So I’m following the map that leads to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Yeah yeah yeah
Oh oh oh

Oh, I was there for you
Oh, in your darkest time
Oh, I was there for you
Oh, in your darkest nights

Oh, I was there for you
Oh, in your darkest time
Oh, I was there for you
Oh, in your darkest nights

But I wonder where were you?
When I was at my worst
Down on my knees
And you said you had my back
So I wonder where were you?
When all the roads you took came back to me

So I’m following the map that leads to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following to you
The map that leads to you
Ain't nothing I can do
The map that leads to you
Following, following, following