One year later

Hey guys....How are you today??
Best Friends are like Stars, you don't always see them, but you know they are always there...

Harma Family

And this morning, would like to thank Allah SWT for gave me some best friends in my life who always there for me.

Thank you, best! Thanks for being my best best best friend in my life. Thanks for every little thing, every concern, every laugh, every ears, and most of all for every time that we spent together.

Para veteran

I know I’m still have so many flaws and maybe not being your best friend yet, but still I’ll always try to be one of your best friend in your life, too.

It was great to see all of you all...

Coming soon...another picture...be continued....

I will continue to write this blog as long as there are people reading it.

I just wanna say....

Hi everybody....

I just wanted to thank all of you and to let you guys know how wonderful it feels to have friends like you that can share in my special day. Thanks!

I'm speechless.I've lost words to say.I never knew i have wonderful friends around me.I have been blessed with the happiest memories of my life......

Thank you again for your birthday wishes once again. I will keep all your wishes close to my heart. 

Sincerely,

Bang Nugros

The Emptiness

....It’s the emptiness that somehow feels so heavy. That’s what kills you...

 A good wednesday, what can you expect?

Up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness

You know that feeling? When you're just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation.

Nothing is wrong...but nothing is right either.

And I'm tired. Tired of everything. Tired of nothing. I just want someone to be there and tell me it's okay. hope someone bring me leave this place, but no one's going to be there. And I know I have to be strong for my self, because no one can fix me.

But I'm tired. Tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix myself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. and for once, I just want it to be easy. to be simple. to be helped. to be saved.

But I know I won't be, but I'm still hoping. And I'm still wishing.

And I'm still staying strong and fighting.  If this is a fairytale, I wish it will end happily

# Bang Nugros

# Estranged

es·trange [ɪˈstreɪndʒd] tr.v. es·tranged, es·trang·ing, es·trang·es
1. To make hostile, unsympathetic, or indifferent; alienate.
2. To remove from an accustomed place or set of associations.
3. Alienated; No longer friendly.

still the same old story, I am talking to myself, doesn’t matter, anxiety has got me strung out and frustrated, sometimes i wonder if i should be left alone,It makes me lose control, cause now it seems i'm too far gone
To be Continued....

The Impossible Dream

“The impossible dream to dream the impossible dream to bear the unbearable sorrow to write the unwritable wrong to try when your arms are too weary The reach the unreachable star 

This is my quest, to follow that star No matter how hopeless, No matter how far To fight for the right Whithout question or pause To be willing to march into hell For a heavenly cause And I know if I'll only be true To this glorious quest That my heart will be peaceful and calm When I'm laid to my rest And the world would be better for this That one man scorned and covered with scars Still strove with his last ounce of courage To reach the unreachable star

* Every great dream begins with a dreamer *

# lonely @ my workspace #

It's So Hard

Not much to say, I'm just wondering, it has been a long time  and I keep questioning this question...

I wanna go, anywhere without any destination. 

Because sometimes it's better to run away, and not hearing any truths nor any lies. they hurt too much. 

Now I am drowning.

Thank you, for your hard efforts in understanding me...

Bang Nugros